****comment on post below: I wrote this primarily, to let you all know what the Lord is teaching us right now. But I do realize that in focusing on that, I left out some important details about what may or may not happen in the coming week. Please check the comment section for a better explanation of that.****
What a week.
Possibly one of the hardest we've had in flight school thus far.
We were coasting along through flight school--difficult, yes, but nevertheless, assuming that Ben would be graduating this past Friday from Vt-10. Assuming that it was God's plan, and well, just assuming a lot.
But on Monday (a week ago today), all of those assumptions blew up in our faces.
Ben failed his first flight. And long story short, the week didn't get a whole lot better after that, and failing a flight comes with a lot of added pressure and uncertainty.
What, Lord? That's not part of the 8 week plan!
That's not what we were praying so fervently for!
How can this be your will?
It was a pretty hard blow, but of course, God's purposes in revealing these things to us are always good.
And along with all of our prayers for Ben to be successful in his flying, we were also praying for God's will to be done. Well, he wasn't exactly "successful" on Monday, by flight school's standards, but we have to believe that it was God's will.
James 4:13-16 says, "Come now, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit"--yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, "If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that." As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.
We are not guaranteed anything in this life. Ben is in flight school right now, I am in pre-nursing school--and we know that right now, this where God has us. But to make assumptions beyond that is arrogant and assuming. We do not know what the future holds and have to hold our plans loosely, trusting the Lord every step of the way.
Do we believe that God can cause Ben to complete all of flight school? Yes. Yes. Yes. He is the Almighty God, who has shown us so much of His power and favor over Ben's studies (and mine too, for that matter).
But, will we assume that God is going to do that? No. His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. So although, we think that it would be a great idea for Ben to complete flight school, and definitely hope that God has that in store for us--we are learning to trust Him more and more in this. His ways are best. So whatever He has for us, we will gladly accept.
We do not know what tomorrow will bring.
Its an interesting place to be. And we are still learning our right response. On the one hand, we are believing God. and praying with such belief that He can totally give Ben the ability he needs to pass his remaining flights. And on the other hand, we are also praying that we will trust Him and be willing for whatever he does have for us.